am done with reading. i wanna start playing by heart. of course i don't know how to listen, because i started out with theories and notes and the concept of symbols and their meanings. but it's worth a try, right? it's more convenient, even tho doesnt make any sense to me, but yeah. "yeah yeah yeah" xD xD xD it seems fun! i'm jealous, i envy them. to be able to... you know. just... play. anything, anywhere, anytime :( i waaaant!! it's hard to break from a habit but its not impossible. have faith, have faith ^^ this morning was a bad start though. printed out partitures for The Call. aaaaggghhh seeeellffffff FAAAIILLSSS.

oh and i love my Tumblr <3 that's Tumblr and LJ for the time being. but will go running back to MP in the end, as always. and Lastfm. i LOVE Lastfm xD xD xD it's practically useless but ooohhhh playcount *paws*

okay, off to Jakarta. again. yay for holiday!!! hope am not pushing my luck too far. got headache all over after Puncak, midnight puke and stuff *eew* when felt slightly better, instead of taking it easy and have some rest tucked in bed, i went to BTC and BIP straight away. got dizzy afterwards. doh, stupid. but i'm all better now. i think.

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Don't know why I can't locate this feeling, that I would rather be with you
It makes no sense, you're crying out loud, that I may love you
This stress is wasting my emotions that I would rather be with you
Don't let them closer to this secret... that I may love you

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA JUST HOW GORGEOUS IS THAT!!! <3

EDIT: THE WAY GUS SINGS!!!

went to loadsa places. helping dad out with office works. numbers. bloody NUMBERS. from 3-7pm!! dealt with Rp 178.012.807,- my god. loadsa money. end of year thingy. head ached. i smelt of money. dad paid me up 50rb + 100rb worth of Tony Jack vouchers lol i love dad he's awesome. after work's all done, made vid for Masqey, love the result so much. aand... dad lost car key in the office. was hectic! but found it in the end and went back to Bandung. arrived past midnight.

(this is how  Rp 178.012.807,- look like *_*)

(aryan yey!)

[ the libertines crosswords ]
gonna copee and paste instructions from Mando Forum. This is how it works: Insert The Libertines song titles into the fields (without the blanks between the words). This is not a computer game! It's a puzzle solved by pen and paper, so if possible, print it out! Click on image for bigger version.

\\ MERRY BJORNMAS //

err yeah that's it. 

• got the bestest christmas gifs everrrrrr i cant stop smiling/grinning/aawwing ohmydear thankyou!!! but i dont know how to top that! :'( so full of happiness and and and... fucking hell. just gorgeous. want to save to phone. but too big. ooooooooooooooooooo need to do Beneficial Herbs 200th playcount banner. really. how to do that! *clueless*
• last day of exam. was so horrible couldnt do it but whatever. HOLIDAY. 
• when Gustaf sings "you're above and beyond me" all i hear is "you're above and Bjorn me" askhdahda
• made cute card for mother's day <3
• ditraktir nonton ama Dania krn SAAnya dia dapet A *hugsies* nonton Sang Pemimpi di Ciwalk ber-15an. yang cewe nangis semua dong, moi included. ada ARIEL!! i kept saying "ari-el" my friend kept saying "areel" meh. but yeah movie's good. love it. but then again, i love lotsa things. like, christmas tree. i love it. 
  
  

ochrasy. 

now they come again all these soldiers without shame 
dressed in black an equipped with fire 
they can stop our happy days and put us in the graves 
but never reach the Ochrasy

*FLAILS*

yeah yeah yeah i love crappy blog entries... 

one thing went wrong today though. hmm. but am not impressed anyway with the way things been going on lately. 

edit: two things went wrong. oh dear lord i hate uncomfortable silence. who doesnt. blah.

[ wednesday 16th ] 
- went to BaBe, plain crap. went to Old & New, omigosh!! there was Tabby's guitar for 1.8jt! and bass guitar!!!! for only 615rb!!! so many stuff!!! Star Wars and ET figures!!!!!!! asjhdajhsda and Shin Angyo Onshi! and and and... oooohhhh so many! love 2nd hand shop. wheee ♥


- came over to Chizu's place to get back my electric guitar. but her dad brought it to Sumedang. errr... gonna pick it up later zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
- crazy Swedish-slash-German chat with Masqey x'D x'D
- went to uni at 7pm, groupwork. funnn *hugs friends* dan kayanya gw lupa sholat Isha. sampe rumah langsung tidur.

[ thursday 17th ]
- had to go to Tia's place early in the morning. HECTIC. ngelayout tugas pake Corel. i love Corel. and i love hecticness. so yayyyz. but also devastated cuz my friends can make something like this but i can't :( :( :( am crap when it comes to architectural design! padahal semester besok gw Studio Akhir!!! nooooeeesssss /o\ i have to ask them for tutorial!

- ujian Pemugaran Bangunan. only 2 questions. i got one of em wrong. duhhhh. kenapa gw pilih "PRESERVASI"?? baka.
- ditraktir es buah ama Dita ♥ karena udah selesai sidang SAA!
- Winny's place. ngerjain tugas akhir Pengantar Real Estate. so many numbers and calculations *____* i haven't dealt with numbers ever since i... err, graduated from high school? (can't i just protect your heeeaaaarrt?) 
- first day of Midnight Sales. mum found leather bag in PVJ for me and got the shop keeper to save it til the next day.
- fell asleep at 8ish. woke up midnight, went ol til morning. got distracted and didnt do work at all *&@#%!!!&#^&#(%$!!

[ friday 18th ]
- skipped groupwork cuz have to finish final paper today!! yeah hectic. i snapped out at people (meehh suzz). printer ran out of ink halfway through so had to go to Sultan Global. great. tapi skalian ngejilid hardcover. anjislas skripsi ngabisin kertas banyak banget. apalagi pas awal, setiap nge print draft harus 3 copy astagaaaaa itu di kamar gw udah numpuk banyak banget. ih ih ihhh. 
- masqey's place. "so what do I need to get through the day? ONE BLOOD! what do I need to break on through the night? ONE HEART! what do I do to get along with these, these fools? ONE SOUL!" fucking awesome. tried out some Mando Diao on guitar, oh looooooveee it.
- didn't got to high school class reunion. went to uni instead. more groupwork! more numbers! 123456789012345 gak sempet sholat ashar!
- got home, but soon went out with family to PVJ. street was congested. but whatever got COOL LEATHER BAG YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! 20% discount! my first proper bag! ♥

[ saturday 19th ]
- begitu bangun langsung nyuci mobil. 2 mobil. but had Mando Diao played from my phone so ♥ ♥ ♥ had yoghurt for breakfast, having One Blood flooding my lastfm.
- havent got anything planned today but want to go out cuz wanna wear my puhreety bag. where where where?
edit: went out to BEC (with puhreety bag). printer fixed! bought that laptop fan thing!
- the only 3 things i know about Sweden: Mando Diao, IKEA, Volvo. also i know where it is on the map! and while i'm on it... what's that white thing showing up behind Gustaf? his... pants? white pants?? *blushes* 

[ kasabian updates ]

1) NME's Letters Page
Crumbling Empire
Dear Santa, I'm a bit worried about my friend Serge. It used to be mega, right, I'd go call on him and we'd go out and play on bikes and I'd make a ramp and go "Hey Serge, watch this!" and I'd go ZOOM off it and he'd think I was amazing and then we'd play Star Wards and I'd be Luke and he'd be Han and the dog would be Chewy and it was ACE. Now, though, all he wants to do is hang out with Dan the Automatic Man and 'make beats' and talk about 'psychedelia, yeah?' even when I dressed as Napoleon and trumped he didn't laugh. How can I win him back?
Tom, Leicester
PS. please can I have loads and loads and loads of toys!!
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2) Serge & Tom choose Christmas presents
http://community.livejournal.com/kasabian_empire/28896.html?mode=reply
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3) More about upcoming album
"There's one song that sounds like Nirvana, which is really grungy, a big riff. It's nothing like what we've done on West Ryder Pauper Lunatic Asylum, it's really old school grunge."

"I think we'll do it a bit quicker this time," Tom said. "We took a good three months off last time, because we toured for about four years and that's the only reason we took that amount of time off, because we toured like crazy. I think this time we'll have a few weeks off or a month off, then we'll go into the studio and record the new record. Hopefully we won't wait around so much this time."
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4) BBC Programme
Next on: Thu, 31 Dec 2009, 23:00 on BBC Two.

Jools Holland returns for the 17th Hootenanny, celebrating the old year and bringing in the New Year with a bumper mixture of artists of the year and classic names.

Joining the orchestra in the star-packed studio are the artists and bands of the year, playing the songs that have inspired us during 2009. Dizzee Rascal performs hits from Tongue 'N Cheek including the year's anthem Bonkers; Lily Allen sings tunes from her second hit album It's Not Me It's You; and Kasabian perform tracks from West Ryder Pauper Lunatic Asylum, featuring a cameo from Rodrigo Y Gabriela.
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woke up early in the morning and did a morning walk/jog around the area, all by myself. i wanted to be alone with my thoughts. but i got Give Me Fire album with me and that practically left no space on my head for my thoughts and ended up making imaginary essay on how great that album is. well just as Masqey said... mon diao. 

after 30 mins, my mp3 player ran out of batt and went dead. meh. so got back home and went ol for a bit. Sergio's birthday. Sergio's picspam on LJ :D Sergio Birthday turned into Sergio Thanksgiving!!

"... for not being afraid to say 'best mate or missus' about Me Plus One. Giving the other end of the scarf to Tom and wandering after him in a hope of micsharing for Club foot at Bournemouth."

watched a DVD that i cant quite remember what it was of now *_* had cold shower, and at 11 drove Silver Ryder to uni. it's been acting out weird lately. dunno whats wrong :( went to Tia's place straightaway and Dita was there already, having breakfast. i already had mine but... well i eat a lot. so ordered Indomie Goreng xD after they'd finished with breakfast, Tia went on turning her keyboard. and she played. and she sang. and Dita joined her. and oh my dear lord... their voices. elles ont les plus belles voix. i squealed. i covered my mouth with my hands and went on squeeing. beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful. it was so good i could cry :') it was so good i don't want to share it with anybody else. i want to keep it for myself.  

and then we (finally) did some works. i had to leave early at 3 because had to pick up sis from her school. the journey back home was lovely. we talked about everything and nothing. i love being with my family. it feels right, it feels fit, it feels wonderful. i feel at peace. 

when we got home, Hani was cooking :') she's such a great cook. she could make pasta and cookies and you know, food. proper food. this time she made cupcakes. bless. she'd make a perfect housewife! oh fuck. i just remember what dad said the other night... err he said, both him and mum gonna spend new year's eve in Switzerland. just them two. ri-ight... they've been there before!! aaaaaaa take us take us take us! well it's no official yet, they're still waiting for visa. but oh my god i envy. i havent got anything planned yet!! so probably just gonna go to Jakarta with sis, be with cousins... 

watched Heroes from Aryan. gayness. went to sleep. finally some time alone with my thoughts and i cried myself to sleep. i do that yeah. i'm emo like that xD xD

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA nampak harus bergadang. 

karena nemu ini:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVAZnbdTdrE&feature=player_embedded (SO FRICKIN HILARIOUS!!! tom's a cook? also grade 8 on piano? i find that really hard to believe but gyaaaahhh they're so giggly and sweet and ahahahaaaaa)

nemu itu. nemu ini itu ini itu ini itu gagagaagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa padahal harus bikin tugas. buat jam 8 besok *wails* dasar internet. sekarang udah jam... stengah 2 pagi. guh.

but im so wired up i feel like jumping up and down and up and rolling around and...

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im soooo in a good mood!!

uhm. highlight of this weeked? when i went to gran's house, i taught my little cousin how to play piano. he got so excited about it when i gave him kiddish song to play. he put numbered stickers on the keys and said that's so he wont forget about it. right. so i left him sticking those stickers and i went off for a shower. when i checked him up again? oh no no nonoo. no more stickers. why? because he wrote down the numbers on the piano. with big black permanent markers.

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0____________0



!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tried everything we could but still it wouldnt come off. thats the best we could do. ah well. at least that's my gran's piano, not mine *coughs*

i also went shopping with mum. got new jeans yayz! saw Orochi and Pinky (i think??) there too, wearing normal clothes :D and then hospital visit. creepy old hallways my mind went to Kasabian mode instantly. and maqsey came up with the term "studiao". didnt find Pushing Daisies anywere. the fuck! mangdu, ambassador, chelsea, giant, dvd place in uni, and aryan even went to err forgot what its called. that place faraway in pasar baru. yeah that. and nope. none. what the fuck, man. i want to watch. oh and this:

such a teaser but oh well oh well GLOORIAAAA!

"ARE YOU READY TO MEET GLORIAAAA?GLOOORRRIAAAAA" 

and it's official. my suicide song is Mando Diao - The Malevolence.

Ooooooohhhhhh gustaafff... that song is a killer. 

on the other hand... Mando Diao - Come On Come On:

So come on come on, dress me like a queen
Confuse me, even steal my inner feelings
Come on come on, change the way I've been
Just hold me down, abuse my mind forever

Ooooooohhhhhh bjornnn... you want gus to dress you like a queen??? and... to hold you down... and...

:')

wtf wtf start working on assignment you fucker. but but but i want to watch that kasabian vid again x'D x'D x'D oh and i found this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGYlK5Phdu8 hahahhaaa i can barely see me! wtf wtf oh yeah gonna do fasting tomorrow. and got exam. and dentist. and group work. meh?

edit: AND OH MY GOD THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSC6K-yzOFk&feature=related WHAT WHAT WHAT AHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ian!!! you ruined it completely. aw bless. i love them so fricking much. hilarious. and im high. i love my family i love everyone.

final paper sidang was awful. really. so bad at public speaking. i fucking rambled this afternoon. my god. it was pathetic. i was pathetic. 

but other than that, today's been great. in the morning i actually watched some of Mando Diao footages that masqey had posted x'D x'D x'D (uh-huh i went Mando-ing before sidang) they're unbelievably hilariously awesomely adorable :'D and Give Me Fire album? epic. havent listened to all to be honest, got hooked on the first 6 songs. what can i say. THEY'RE AMAZING. i love their tunes. i don't care about the lyrics as long as the tune is good. well not saying I don't care about the lyrics all together, but they really don't bother me that much. for most of the times. gosh. Mando Diao. been listening and on my lastfm their playcount 600ish already. 4th place. beat Wolfie xD xD not really happy by the fact they beat Babyshambles tho.

my god my god my god their songs so fucking amazing.

edit: oh HAPPY BJORNMAS!!!!!! ("what's a Bjornmas?") lol i'll celebrate Bjornmas any day when i feel like it :D

edit 2: another reason why i need to re-take French class: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2Zi4mC7MSs&feature=related (cutenesscutenessoverload)

no Carbon Place chord on UG!!! uhhh... how come?? i'm going to tab it down and post gahahaha it sounds easy yeah *clears throat* right. ri-ight. uhm, and their Forum a bit weird, it's more like a commenting place? but i found cute stuff hahahaaa so yayyyzz...

just got back from jogging+listening to Mando Diao aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa they're amazing amazing how cant say it enough! so how long did my Kasabian euphoria last? started August 14th, birth of Secret Alphabets, ended... lets say today, 8th December, by the birth of... tarataataaaaa... ODE TO OCHRASY!! well Kasabianphoria started couple of days before SA, so that makes it around 4 months. whoah :O

ok so... they're currently on my lastfm Top 10 Artists... surely they can beat Wolfie and make it to the Big 5? ;D coursee... tho seeing Kasabian playcount up there is soo intimidating!! 

new stuff i've learned today:
Herr Horst is a German homeless living in Stockholm, infamous for playing the harmonica in a very peculiar way.

omg poor Serge looks as if hes saying DO NOT WANT to "have a drink, have a dance, and pray" :( maybe if i changed it to "have a Tommy, have a cuddle and kiss" he'd be saying I SO WANT :D 

meeehhh do i have to keep doing this... cant be bothered anymore, i just missed yesterday! xP the rest: 

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we've got ourselves bat as a pet now 0______0 basically a bat got tangled and stucked just outside our bathroom window and dad tried to let it go and one thing led to another and now it's hanging upsidedown downstairs di jemuran and we've been feeding him bananazz xD xD xD B-A-N-A-N-A-S *gwen-ish* 

but other than that, i feel completely like shit. you know. SHIT. ooooooooooooooohhhhhh major moodswing (cant stop grinning hearing The Band, but still) moodswing moodswing moodswing 

When I say
I said I'd die for you
Or was it in my head
I took you down on ouzo
And now I think I'd rather see you dead

how am i supposed to react to that *grins* the way his voice goes up a pitch in the end :") if i didnt know the story behind it i'd be all gahahaha Gustav keeps busying himself with his guitar (and being preeetyy) and Bjorn keeps lollollolsidewayglances and that bit "watch me going mad" gahahahaaaa... eh i didnt get names mixed up there did i? why on earth didnt they sang their own parts on the song, i love the way their voices come together. aaaa gimme b-sides they have so many b-sides where to get them x"( well i want album songs first, and then b-sides and then miscellaneous stuff. gimme gimmeeeee. Mando Diao still 356 on my lastfm :( damn phone/mp3player for not being able to sync to lastfm awh.

The band was most taken by “ochrasy” a term which they made up for those wee hours of the night, after the show, post-afterparty, before the start of the next day. It is a place and a state of mind somewhere between dream and reality. As frontman Björn Dixgard describes it, ochrasy is “that hallucinatory world you enter around four and five in the morning... a sort of Utopian world where anything can happen, where everything is allowed.”

M A N D O  D I A O  Y A Y Z

Carbon Place is so niiiceeee :"( sadface. i'm going to ignore the fact that i hate YouTube and replay this song over and over again. 

With guardians and angels who sleep for the summer
And drinkers and loners who live through the night

fuck it :(

day 12 → whatever tickles your fancy 

MANDODIAOOFCORSWHATELSE X"D yayzz... have "made" their icon fer my LJ lol The Sweden Are Alright xD xD how come theres no Mando Diao community gaaahhhh they deserve to be more known! 

• According to the band, the name Mando Diao has no meaning at all, but rather appeared to band member Björn Dixgård in a dream.
• Björn Dixgård and Gustaf Norén locked themselves up in a summer house and spent six months writing songs.

what's not to love? :'D i really really really love their sounds!! proper rock and roll. amazing stuff. i just went to their official web, its got random songs from Give Me Fire album playing automatically ooooooo wantwantwant should i join the Forum? cuz i dont go to Kasabian Forum anymore (reallynewfangirlsareannoying guh) 

Kasabian Tour Brochure here http://www.tomskipp.com/index.php?/new-work/kasabian-tour-brochure/ whoooaaa loadsa hallways 0___0 maqsey's Swarfiga artwork would so fit right there! *_____* madness.

edit: i just did and it says "Welcome to the Mando Diao Community – you are now a registered citizen!" XD XD XD nice!

day 11 → a photo of you taken recently 

with huge Disney hat x'D 

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we squeee-ed over Manics and for a moment i thought omg im gonna be so obsessed over them but err no that's not gonna happen (yet) cuz OMGMANDODIAOATTACKKK!!! i kept on moaning mau pulaaaaangg mau pulaaaaaaaaaaannngggg but then she played, uhm what was it... Good Morning Herr Horst vid? and so yeah squeeeeeiinngggg brilliant vid X'D X'D X'D and then out of nowhere she found THEMCOVERINGTHEBEATLES so very EPICEPIC SQUEEEEAGAIN omg omg omgg man! :"D just downloaded it and hell yeah its gonna be most recently played on my lastfm!

err and it's just impossible to find Gloomy Sunday music sheet. and now im kinda eerrrr i cant bring myself to listen to the song what if what if what if xO xO xO ah man. im tempted, really. will try again in the morning because its really not a midnight material. 

day 10 → a photo of you taken over ten years ago 

dont know how old was i in that pic, but must be no older than 10. i guess? tee-hee school dance xP i was the youngest, the rest of them were my seniors. i used to dance a lot when i was a kid, also having dance lesson with my cousin :D 

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WHAAAAA my god i just realised on the cards i wrote happy christmas instead of merry christmas *BANGSHEAD* stupid stupid i was thinking about Happiness!! 

day 09 → a photo you took 

capture a moment and freeze it forever. 

day 08 → a photo that makes you angry/sad 

because i was doing folder cleanups and came across this and somehow i just went :( :( :( the old times! 

and because i too want a peaceful death, the last thing i want to hear is Happiness. 

i love my wallet, it's handy :D

day 07 → a photo that makes you happy 

ok so it's a series of photos :'D they make me squeeeemeltmeltmelt. melt. melt.

nicked from dollrock's journal, tee hee ^.^

i missed out day 4 (fave book) and 5 (fave quote) :( but here goes today... 

day 06 → whatever tickles your fancy

because that's just wheeeeeeeee <3 

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weekend, was funtastic!! dunno where to start, meehh so many things happened. key events:

1) maqsey made me an Ied Adha card x'D x'D
i checked her e-mail from my cou's BlackBerry cuz couldnt resist it! hence the not noticing the chicken behind serge. aaaaaaaawwwww man. would like to own sheep like that please. for the time being, will wait patiently for xmas, new year, and birthday cards. can i get happy december card too? 

2) morning walk
jakarta as i've never seen it before :D all the way from Bunderan HI to Bunderan Senayan. yes all these times, i had never heard about this sort of things. am lame. SO PUHREETY!! innit. felt so surreal, walking in the mid of the road with tall buildings around us, bicycles here and there and everywhere. oh love. and i bought purple balloon!

3) family gatherings
HEARTS HEARTS HEARTS. love mum's side of the family. watched New Moon with cousins. when got out asked one of them about what team he's on, and he said: "Jacob lah" gahahahahaaaaa *lussshhh* mum and dad watched 2012 and were pissed cuz its soo Hollywood xD xD xD i dont mind it, it's entertaining! 

err yeah so many other unimportant stuff along those lines but too high cant think of them... happeh. oh Beatles Tribute. The Good The Bad The Ugly t-shirt (!!!), pressies hunting, shopping, etc etc. uni again tomorrow. why oh whyyyyyyyyyy... 

"ah life seems simpler innit when we can get so excited over trivial things"
or on another words, Kasabian fucked our heads real bad xD xD xD

day 03 → your favourite television programme 

at the moment it's True Blood. hahahaaa yeaaaahhh... very entertaining, straight to your face, nothing witty, which is all that i need at the moment. and handsome vampires, yeah (it's basically porn with plot ahahaha what the hell xD xD xD). still trying to figure out why does it feel familiar, so i guess i must've read the novel before, because visually i'm totally unfamiliar with it. i know the names, the stories, but on my head i pictured the whole thing differently. so yeah. i must have read it somewhere (though i cant recall anything, whooooo spooky). Sookie, Bill, Fangtasia... 

today am skipping uni because can't be bothered. the day's just too lovely! i dont want to be stuck in a fricking classroom! tomorrow's Idul Adha anyway, hope we're going out somewhere, i need a break from this city... 

• had cold toasts it's eew. i went off jogging forgetting i had some toasted =_= came back hungry and couldnt be bothered to re-toast them. 
• True Blood 0____________0 i'm absolutely sure that i haven't watched it before ever (except for a short glance at the 2nd season when it came on tv) BUT! i watched the first eps last night AND! what!? fucking ell have i read the novel before?? (is it based on a book?) how come i'm so familiar with it??? the characters, the scenes, the story... what...
• kasabian forum is fricking annoying now with fangirls :-| am leaving for good... 

day 02 → your favourite movie

easy: Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels. Guy Ritchie at his best. when i was doing English Media Studies and asked to do a review, i had this on mind but then i didn't know how am i supposed to write about it so ended up making an essay on Peter Pan (which i love too) xP